November completely wiped me out mentally and emotionally. I finished NaNo (50,000 words) on the fifteenth I believe, and I wrote 20,000 words after that. I failed hitting the 100,000 word mark, but I’m fine with that. I had family in town and my life continued to blow up around my ears so only writing a little more than a thousand words a day after the fifteenth was completely ok with me.
I’m deciding where I want to take this blog since I have to start getting my brand name out there and work on getting a client base for my business of training horses. I’m going to restart my training diary and I think that I am going to have set days I’m going to post, and a set schedule of the subject of each day. So far I’m thinking that I will be posting Monday and Friday for sure, and maybe have a Wednesday thrown in there every now and again.
Monday will talk about horsemanship, what I’m learning and etc. I may or not post on Wednesday (if I do it will pertain to writing or be a new the bodacious ones) and Friday I will post on either horsemanship, or what God has been bringing to my attention. I will most likely deviate from this pattern, but this is what I am hoping to do. I don’t think I will be able to implement this schedule until mid-Januaryish since December is pretty busy for me, then school starts back up (I’m on break until the first week of January), which is then followed by my 18th birthday on the ninth (car and license!).
I’m really getting excited for turning eighteen and finally graduating school. It’s scary thinking about finally being an adult/getting a job/starting a business but I’m starting to discover that it’s a good kind of scary. Up until recently it scared me in the bad sense, but now I’m growing excited to move onto the next stage of life. I plan on getting a part time job in January to save up for Ellerslie next fall (there’s a barn with multiple indoor arenas, trails, round pens, and etc 15-20 miles away so I’m planning on bringing Sonny along with me). I’m also saving up to get an OTTB to train and sell (I’ll be filming a demo DVD and posting Youtube videos of his/her rehabilitation). Then I have to get a new trailer and find the money to get the Friesian filly I’ve been wanting since I was a little girl.
Oh, and I also have to figure out what I’m going to do with Toby. Sell him or keep him? I won’t be able to know for sure what to do with him until I finally get his foundation down. I would love to keep him (which may be a viable option depending on whether or not I can fence off a sacrifice area and get some sort of barn up where I can stable at least some of the horses at night to keep them off of the grass), but I’m not sure if that’s the smartest move. Right now I think he may be a good horse for more advanced students to work with since he is very light if, and only if, you ask correctly. If you don’t ask correctly you will most likely end up dumped in the dirt.
If you can’t tell, even though I’m excited I am a bit stressed out about it all. I’m having trouble just trusting that if God wants me to do this that He will open the doors that need to be opened and close doors that need to be closed. By next winter I need a barn, an arena, and a truck/trailer combo (my dad is probably going to sell the truck we have now and our trailer is old and only a two horse) in order to start my business. Right now I can’t afford even one of these items, so if I am supposed to start this business up something supernatural is going to have to occur. I could start doing ground work lessons and beginners now without a barn and just a round pen, but that won’t work for too terribly long. I would also need a shed for my tack (right now it is in a very small tack room on my trailer), but if I am able to get the job I want in January I should be able to afford the shed in a few months.
Life is starting to get hectic and it’s strange having to think about what I need to do in order to be able to live out on my own. It’s strange, very strange.